How to Find the Healing We ALL Need

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as a kid

i dreamt of becoming a sports

broadcaster

growing up outside of boston i used to

fall asleep at night listening to the

bruins the red sox or the celtics

honestly i just liked knowing that i

wasn’t the only one still awake

but i never heard the voice of a woman

and

as somebody raised to always root for

the underdog which

of course is related to being a boston

sports fan growing up in the 80s and 90s

it bothered me that it seemed that women

didn’t have a role

in calling major sports so i decided i

was going to break that glass ceiling

and i was going to be a woman sports

broadcaster

with that driving me years later i went

to boston college to study

communications

i joined the sports radio station i

called a couple hockey games and a

homecoming football game

go eagles it was fun but what i realized

was

it wasn’t my deepest passion something

else caught my attention in college that

drew me in

and has had me hooked ever since

in my senior year at bc i took a course

called the challenge of justice

and in it i read two books that have

shaped my perspective of the world

and my role in it the first book

is a book called violence by dr james

gilligan

in that book he describes the cycle of

violence that takes place when we fail

to intervene

for children who experience trauma

and how as a result years later they are

more likely

to harm others the second book was dead

man walking by sister helen prejean

perhaps you’ve seen the movie starring

susan sarandon

in that book sister helen prejean

describes her experience ministering to

people on death row

and through that experience she makes

two things clear

first that we are all better

than our worst acts by ministering to

these individuals she came to know them

and see their whole beings and she saw

that there was no way to define their

whole beings

by their crimes the second thing she

made clear

was that dr gilligan was right when we

fail to repair harm

we perpetuate a cycle of violence

and the criminal legal system with the

death penalty in particular

perpetuates that harm even more

i was fascinated by this and deeply

disturbed

i was left wondering so then what does

repair harm because the truth is we have

all experienced harm

we’ve all caused harm and we are all

in need of healing from it

so after i graduated college i abandoned

that dream of being a sports broadcaster

and moved to la

to join the jesuit volunteer corps i’ll

never forget my dad’s reaction

la but the gangs

so naturally at the first opportunity i

got to volunteer with gang members in

the local juvenile hall

i jumped on it through that opportunity

i was able to become proximate to people

who are facing serious time as children

i worked one-on-one with them for weeks

and weeks and got to know them quite

well and i’ll never forget a 15 year old

child who i worked with

looking me in the eyes one day and

saying

jody i have no hope for my life

i was crushed how could a

fifteen-year-old child growing up in the

uni

in the united states of america have no

hope

i reflected on his circumstances he grew

up in an impoverished community in south

la

his dad and his brother were in prison

violence was rampant in his community

and the schools were abysmal his debt

his mom worked several jobs to try to

make ends meet

so she wasn’t around a lot his teachers

had given up on him he told me once

he like all children yearned for love

and community and unfortunately that led

him to the streets

he joined a gang he committed a crime

and was facing serious prison time as a

result

it was obvious to me that we had

failed this child and so many children

like him

i thought about something that one of my

mentors father greg boyle had said once

he said let no one escape the notice of

god

and by that he meant make sure that

everyone everywhere no matter what feels

loved and valued

i knew then i would devote my career to

advocating for those in the criminal

legal system

people we failed to protect from harm

long before they committed harm

themselves and to try to figure out

what it is that could bring all of us

healing including myself

what i’ve discovered is that there are

two things we all need

in order to find healing the first

is we need to see each other as human

civil rights lawyer brian stevenson has

said that

it is through proximity to the

marginalized that we

gain the power to change the world

if you haven’t read brian’s book just

mercy i highly recommend it but what

brian’s saying is that when we have the

opportunity

to become close to people we might not

otherwise encounter

we’re able to see and appreciate our

collective humanity

and we’re able to witness that

we have more in common than what divides

us

today i work for an organization that

seeks to

ensure that children are held

accountable for harm they cause

in age-appropriate and trauma-informed

ways

with a focus on banning life without

parole and other extreme sentences for

children

through my work i’ve had the opportunity

to bring together survivors of violence

with those who’ve been convicted of very

serious crimes as children

and last year i met a man i’ll call sam

sam was shot and nearly killed by a

teenager

about 20 years ago and sam agreed to

join a gathering we were hosting

with a number of individuals who were

all convicted of murder

as teenagers they spent days together

and during that time

sam was able to hear about their stories

he learned about their childhoods their

time in prison and what they’ve been

doing since they got out of prison to

give back to society

they shared meals together they shed

tears together

they laughed together and through that

experience sam

was able to see their humanity

he left that experience telling me he

felt an incredible sense of healing

and even purpose weeks later

he reached out to me he said you know

jody at the time i was shot

people said i must have survived for

some reason

and i’ve struggled all these years to

figure out what that reason

was until i had the opportunity to meet

the people with whom you work

people we gave up on as children

he said he thought coming to know them

and

advocate for them might be the reason

he survived

sam is one of many survivors of crime

that has expressed me a similar

sentiment

about how healing it has been to be

proximate to people who were convicted

of serious crimes similar to those they

had experienced themselves

because it is in that experience they’re

able to bear witness

to what sister helen prejean described

in her book

and that we are all better than our

worst acts

it is through that experience that

they’re able to see these individuals

who would be so easy for them

to hate and demonize as humans

to see that they are brothers and

sisters daughters and sons

and in that experience they’re able to

find healing and peace

the second thing we all need in order to

find healing is to confront

hard truths

early in my current job i remember a

colleague saying to me you know jody we

can’t

effectively end life without parole for

children

just by pointing to the adolescent

development research that

shows that kids are fundamentally

different from adults because that

doesn’t address the fact that there are

some children in this country who

frankly are just not seen as children i

remember i sort of shrugged the comment

off

at that time and then years later i had

the opportunity to visit the legacy

museum in montgomery alabama

and i remember standing in that museum

looking at a wall in front of me that

had a timeline on it

that showed policies that have been used

to oppress blacks in this country going

back to slavery at one end

and the united states practice of

sentencing children to life without

parole at the other

and it showed the dehumanizing

narratives that we have used over the

years

to justify these policies from lewd

savages at slavery

to super predators in the 1990s which

led to a spike in extreme sentences for

children and i stood there looking at

this wall

absolutely horrified

i saw that there were pictures of people

who looked like me and all of those

pictures were of the oppressors

the people who had perpetuated harm

i thought about how my ancestors and i

benefited from those dehumanizing

narratives

and oppressive policies i felt

overwhelming

sadness and shame

and responsibility i thought back to

that comment

that my colleague had made that i had

shrugged off years earlier

and i knew she was right there are

categories of people in this country

that we have never seen or treated

as fully human and in order to repair

the harm that

that has caused we must confront that

difficult truth

and our roles in it because it is only

then we can find healing

individually and collectively

in my life i’ve had the opportunity to

be proximate to people we declared super

predators

and yet they are some of the most

extraordinary people i know

they all endured trauma as children

they were convicted of very serious

crimes for which they are

deeply remorseful and they live with

that guilt every day

as children they were sent to adult

prisons where they were particularly

vulnerable

to victimization and abuse they were

barred from countless programs because

of the nature of their sentences so they

created their own

they educated themselves they mentored

younger prisoners coming in behind them

they were determined to live life as

fully as they could despite being told

as

children that they were worth nothing

more

than dying in prison

coming to know these individuals has

deeply

enriched my life

it has taught me about courage

resilience forgiveness and the

extraordinary

depth and strength of the human spirit

confronting the truths that made it

possible for them to be condemned

to die in prison has been difficult

and immensely liberating

people think i’m crazy because i say i

go to prison to feel free but it’s true

because it’s there that i know i can

and i must do my part use my privilege

to repair harm

to chart a path to healing

for those i serve and for myself

mother teresa once said if we have no

peace it is because we have forgotten

that we belong to each other

it is my hope that we will all seek

healing

by becoming proximate to society’s

outcasts

so that we can see our collective

humanity

and by confronting difficult truths

because

when we do it will no longer be possible

to forget

that we belong to each other thank you