Learn English Peter Dinklage Life sucks but youll make it with BIG subtitles
[Applause]
don’t be frightened
who weren’t a Bennington student ten
minutes before you come up to the podium
hands you a mace
that he made
if you don’t bring it to the podium with
you you’ll never be Bennington
so I would like to thank you Ben for
helping me put the fear of God in the
audience tonight but I have to put it
down cuz I’m an actor and I’m really
weak it wasn’t like a prop but she was
real thanks Ben
oh so now I’m gonna read and I’m not off
book
sorry I might be looking down a lot
Thank You president Coleman Bryan and
Conover
faculty students family alumni some of
whom are dear friends of mine who’ve
traveled all the way from the big city
to see me
hopefully not humiliate myself tonight
and especially thanks to you the
graduating class of 2012
see I as a joke I wrote hold for
applause and I was actually gonna read
that so you kind of killed my joke let’s
let’s do that again mm drop hold for
applause 2012 wow I never thought I’d
see 2012
I thought perhaps the Mayan calendar
would prove correct and the end of the
world would have been the greatest
excuse to get me out of this terrifying
task of delivering the commencement
speech but wait according to the Mayan
calendar here when does the world in
December December 2012 damn okay maybe I
shouldn’t talk to the graduates eager to
start the new lives about the end of the
world okay really really of all the
novelists teachers playwrights poets
groundbreaking visual artists and
pioneers of science you got the TV actor
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no and I actually heard you petition for
me oh you fools
you know what for those of you who
didn’t petition for me I would love to
later on talk about the problems in the
Middle East and the the you know the
downfall of the world economy and for
those of you who did petition for me I
don’t have any signed DVDs of the game
of Thrones but I’m happy to talk about
the parallel lineages of the Targaryen
and the Lannisters later at the bar you
see it took all of my strength and of
course a little extra push from my wife
Erica for me agree to agree to do this
because I don’t do this in my profession
I am told by people who know what
they’re doing where to stand how to look
and most importantly what to say but
you’ve got me only me my words unedited
and as you will see quite embarrassing
okay let me think I’m thinking but max I
didn’t read that
that was ad-lib anything what has
everyone and their uncle told me as I
desperately seek out advice on how to
give a commencement address tell them
what they want to hear talk about your
time at Bennington know that there is no
wrong speech I like that one
just keep it brief that was my
father-in-law be brutally honest
tell them how hard it is after you
graduate we’ll get back to that one
just watch Meryl Streep’s commencement
speech at Barnard and you’ll be fine
what did Beckett say I can’t go on I’ll
go on
so even if I don’t burn in your hearts
and minds long after this speech is over
even if I don’t inspire you to reach for
the stars and beyond even if I am erased
from your memory after one glass of wine
tonight where am I going with this I
can’t go on I’ll go on
you know I won’t speak of my time here
like some old fisherman you have already
had your time here you have your own
story to tell but I have to say for me
it did start here in Vermont on a very
rainy night it was 1987 and I was a
prospective student the rain was coming
down so hard it was impossible to see
that I was meeting the person who would
later become my greatest friend and
collaborator a freshman who would 17
years later and introduced me to the
woman that became my wife I’ll call him
Sherm because I do
it was late at night on the road right
there near booth house and despite the
dark night and the heavy rain this place
was so alive the lights pulsed from each
of the dorms now I was a kid from New
Jersey who went to an all-boys Catholic
High School I was four foot something I
mumbled when I spoke I wore a sort of
woman’s black velvet cape
black tights combat boots and a scowl
but here at Bennington I was home
and I have to say it doesn’t get better
let me clarify there are not shinier
more important people out there your
fellow students your friends sitting
around you are as good as it gets 22
years after my own graduation I have
worked with my rainy night friend and
fellow graduate Sherm on countless
productions
he has written in all stages of
development from living rooms to
off-broadway Brooks Ian Justin breath
John Matthews Jim Shawn Hilah Nicki and
the B are all classmates
I shared my time with here and still
work with and I’m lucky to call my
friends we are very spoiled here people
always say to me for such a small school
it seems like there are so many of you
I find that really interesting and I
kind of think that’s perfect we can’t
help it we burn very brightly please
don’t ever stop graduates now when I sat
where you are right sitting right now I
had so many dreams of where I wanted to
go who I wanted to be and what I wanted
to do theater companies I wanted to
start with classmates movies I wanted to
be in directors I wanted to work with
stories I needed to tell it might take a
little time I thought but it would
happen when i sat there excuse me
22 years ago what I didn’t want to think
about is where I would be tomorrow what
I would have to start to do tomorrow and
I graduated in 1991 a great year a time
of resurgence for independent films in
this country a time of relatively
affordable rents in New York City as he
I assumed that I could make a living
writing my plays acting way off off off
Broadway and hopefully one day join the
actors I loved and respected in those
independent films TV oh what no what are
you kidding me no didn’t even consider
that I had much more class than that
much more self-respect than that
soap operas and what I didn’t have
was cash a bank account a credit card or
an apartment I just had debt a big
hungry growing larger every moment debt
so as you will tomorrow I had to leave
beautiful Vermont I packed the life that
I knew with socks and a toothbrush into
my backpack and I slept on couch after
couch after couch after couch at friends
apartments in New York until I wore out
their rent paying roommates welcome I
didn’t want a day job I was an actor I
was a writer I was a Bennington graduate
hmm I had to get a day job I dusted
pianos at a piano store on Ludlow Street
for five months I worked on the property
of a Shakespeare scholar for a year
pulling weeds and removing bees nests I
went on unemployment once but for not
for long I couldn’t handle the guilt
eventually I was able to pay rent for a
spot on the floor of an apartment on the
Lower East Side but my roommate had a
breakdown and disappeared he later
resurfaced in a religious cult I’m
making this sound romantic
it really wasn’t I helped hang paintings
at galleries paintings that inspired
inspire you to think I could do that
and then finally after two years of job
and couchsurfing I got a job in
application processing as a data enter
er at a place called professional
examination services and I stayed for
six years six years longer than my time
at Bennington from the age of 23 to 29
well they loved me there I was funny I
were black no cape no tights I smoked in
the loading docks with the guys from the
mailroom and we shared how hungover we
all were everyone called each other
shorty
what’s up shorty how you doing shorty
also hungover shorty I called in sick
almost every Friday because I was out
late the night before I hated that job
and I clung to that job because of that
job I could afford my own place so I
lived in Williamsburg Brooklyn in it
yeah you say that now
or my kingdom for a time machine yeah
that’s right I lived in an industrial
loft my rent was $400 a month my dream
of running a theater company with my
friend and fellow Bennington graduate
Ian Bell had died I won’t go into those
details but neither one of us had any
business sense and the theater we lived
in it had no heat or hot water we didn’t
smell very good but we had our youth the
youth gets old very quickly you’ll see
so Ian moved out to Seattle and I moved
up to the street to my loft and I still
didn’t have heat in 1993 industrial loft
meant not legal to live there I see I
don’t want this to sound cool and I feel
like it’s sounding cool
but I did have hot water mm-hmm hot
water in my bathroom which a friend of
mine using said bathroom once shouted it
smells exactly like a summer camp in
here it was true for some reason in the
middle of Brooklyn there was earth in my
shower actual earth and then look
mushrooms growing from the earth but I
was safe though the ideal fire control
company was right across the street
where they make all the chemicals that
put out chemical fires I did not fear a
chemical fire I would be okay and all
those chemicals in the air were okay too
because up the street we had the spice
factory they made spices and that just
covered everything up in a nice human
scent I had a rat but that was okay
because I got a cat
his name was Brian no relation
my grandmother had given me a pink
pull-out couch oddly no friends or
recent graduates wanted to crash on my
couch so I put the couch on its end so
Brian could climb it and look out the
window
I had only the one window I myself could
not look out the window it was it was
quite high so I had no heat no
girlfriend what are you kidding me
no acting agent but I had a cat named
Brian who told me of the world outside
and I stayed for ten years
no don’t pity me there’s a happy ending
when I was 29 I told myself the next
acting job I get no matter what it pays
I will from now on for better or worse
be a working actor so I quit my position
at the professional examination services
my friends really weren’t happy about
that because he was so easy to find me
when I worked there work was the only
place I had the Internet this was at the
beginning of the Internet and now I
didn’t have either the Internet or a
cell phone or a job but something good
happened
I got a low-paying theater job in a play
called imperfect love which led to a
film called 13 moons with the same
writer which led to other roles which
led to other roles and I’ve worked as an
actor ever since
but I didn’t know that would happen at
29 walking away from data processing I
was terrified ten years in a place
without he six years at a job I felt
stuck in maybe I was afraid of change
are you my parents didn’t have much
money but they struggled to send me to
the best schools and one of the most
important things they did for me and
graduates maybe you don’t want to hear
this is that once I graduated I was on
my own
financially it was my turn parents are
applauding graduates are not but this
made me very hungry
literally
I couldn’t be lazy now I’m totally lazy
but back then I couldn’t be
and so at 29 in a very long last I was
in the company of the actors and writers
and directors I’d sought out that first
year that first day after school I was I
am by their sides raised the rest of
your life to meet you don’t search for
defining moments because they will never
come
well the birth of your children okay
of course forget about it that’s I just
six months she’s my life is forever
changed and that’s the most defining
moment ever but I’m talking about in the
rest of your life and most importantly
in your work the moments that define you
have already happened and they will
already happen again and it passes so
quickly so please bring each other along
with you everyone you need is in this
room these are the shiny more important
people
sorry it sucks after graduation it
really does I mean I don’t know at least
it did for me but that’s the only thing
I know you you just get a bit derailed
but soon something starts to happen
trust me
a rhythm sets in just like it did after
your first few days here just try not to
wait until like me you’re 29 before you
find it and if you are that’s fine too
some of us never find it but you will I
promise you you are already here that’s
such an enormous step all its own you’ll
find your rhythm or continue the one you
I’ve already found I was walking
downtown in Manhattan the other day and
I was approached by a group of very
sweet young ladies easy actually they’re
sort of running feverishly down the
street after me
when they got to me breathless it was
really they didn’t know what to say or
couldn’t form the words but it came out
that they were NYU freshmen and they
were majoring in musical theater of
course come on there are like science
majors
running after me what musicals are you
doing I inquired well one of them said
looking down at her shoes we aren’t
allowed to be in plays our yet our
freshman year now they were paying a
very high tuition to not do what they
love doing I think I said well hang in
there
what I should have said was don’t wait
until they tell you you are ready get in
there
sing or quickly transfer to Bennington
when I went to school here if a freshman
wanted to write direct and star in her
own musical the lights would already be
hung for her now I tell this story
mm-hmm because the world might say you
are not allowed to yet I waited a long
time out in the world before I gave
myself permission to fail please don’t
even bother asking don’t bother telling
the world you already show it do it what
did Beckett say ever tried ever failed
no matter
try again fail again fail better
bennington class of 2012 the world is
yours treat everyone kindly and light up
the night thank you so much for having
me here
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