young people
should be given chances in life
especially the chance
of a good education
sometimes
that means going to study in another
country
far from home
and family
young tuaine
is at school in new zealand
but her home
is on a south sea island
where the warm waters of the lagoon
are as blue
as the sky above
[Music]
june
20
i am going to use this big notebook
for my diary
and write down everything i feel and do
i brought the book with me when i left
home
i used it for english
at my school back home
and when i left there was still plenty
of pages not written on
so it will be good for a diary
at home
i read a story called the diary of anne
frank
it was a very sad story
but i read it lots of times
ann said
it made her feel better to write things
down
it helped her with all those troubles
she had
so
maybe my diary will help me feel better
too
tomorrow
it will be two months
since i left home to come here
61 days
just two numbers when i write it like
that
61 days
but
it is the slowest and longest time i can
remember
how can 61 days go so slowly
i still think of home all the time
and i can remember
every little thing about the island
except
how warm it was
i can't remember that
because
here
it is so cold all the time
but when i lie here
and close my eyes
i can see my friends
and my family
and all my favorite places
and the big black rock where we swam in
the lagoon
and the path that goes to the top of our
mountain
and the cool wind at the top
and if sometimes i can't remember
everything
there are the photos by my bed
and all my seashells
when i was a baby
i was given to my grandparents
because i was the youngest in our family
and that is our custom
my real parents live on another island
our village is called
and our house
is a little bit back from the road that
goes through the village
by the hill
when the last big storm
called sharon
came
the waves from the lagoon came right
over the road
but not as far as our garden which was
lucky
the wind blew all the flowers out of our
garden
but at least the roof stayed on our
house
not like at melee's place
a great piece of metal blew off their
roof right over the house
and cut their goat's head off
it was terrible for the poor animal
there were some bad things that happened
in our village
like sharon
and some accidents on the motorbikes
but mostly there were good things
and i remember the good things
not the bad things
school was good too
i liked it at the college
and i nearly always came top of my class
but i'm sorry about that now
it was coming top
that probably sent me away
we had exams in the first term
and i came first or second in every exam
mr ashton the teacher
came to our house
and said to mama and papa that our
school on the island
wasn't good enough for me
that i should go to school in new
zealand
mama and papa talked about it to uncle
george
i was worried
because i didn't want to go away
but they talked about it again with mr
ashton
and all my family put in some money for
the plane
and sent me here
to auntie vallines
aunty vaine is my mother's cousin
and she has been living in auckland for
over 20 years
there's four of us here in her house
auntie
tar
he's 17
marlene
and me
marlene and i sleep in the same bedroom
she's six
the week after i arrived
auntie bought me a uniform
and i started at the girls college
i've got to stop my diary now
the video has finished
and marlene wants to go to bed
june
25
at first
auntie was friendly
she asked me all about home
and all the relations she hadn't seen
for so long
and she told me the things she used to
do when she was a girl on the island
then she asked me
how much money did i bring with me from
the island
and i said i didn't bring any
and she got a bit angry
i told her mama and papa didn't have any
money to give me
and they told me that auntie had a good
job
and earned plenty of money
auntie said she worked in the chicken
factory
but she didn't get much money
and most of it went on paying the rent
for the house
then
i asked her where was my uncle
i didn't like to ask about him at first
because perhaps he had left her or
something
auntie started crying then
and told me about the accident
uncle ben worked for a building company
that made bridges
one day
one of those very long heavy pieces of
metal
fell on him
his back was broken
and he died in hospital
i told her
i was very sorry i didn't know about the
accident
nobody at home heard about it
she said
uncle ben didn't come from our islands
he was from nowhere
so she only told his family
i felt really sad for auntie then
and bad that i came to live with her
when she didn't have enough money
july
1
i haven't been able to write in my diary
recently
i have had too much schoolwork to do
school is very hard here
but the teachers are nice
my class teacher mrs price is best
she's great
she introduced me to lots of girls
but they aren't from my island
their samoans
and their language is very strange to me
the school is so big too
over a thousand girls
and so many rooms
it is scary
in a school where there are so many
strangers
everyone seems cleverer than me
their english is so good
i try hard to keep up
but i get much lower marks than i did at
home
i don't have enough time to do my work
that's the trouble
auntie is working evenings at the
chicken factory
and i have to get the dinner every night
the only place i can study is in the
bedroom
and the noise from the video is so bad
every night
tar gets some videos and always they are
noisy full of shooting and wars and
shouting
i hate that sylvester stallone
i think it's bad for tara to watch just
that kind of video
marlene too
yesterday
i went and asked tar please could he
turn the video down
because i was trying to study in my room
and he got angry and shouted bad words
at me
he thinks he's so special
what a laugh
he's just a stupid boy who can't get a
job
he won't turn down the video
i'm going to bed now
july
5.
it's sunday
but we didn't go to church
auntie used to go to church but she
never goes now
when i asked why
she said she didn't believe in god
anymore
i thought that was terrible
and i asked her why
she said it was because god took uncle
ben away from them and left them with no
one to take care of them
and not enough money
i don't know if that's right
but i can understand the way auntie
feels
i'm not sure about god
he can be very cruel sometimes
even to good people like anne frank
and uncle ben
in the afternoon
we took the bus to visit uncle ben's
grave
there is a smiling photo on the grey
stone
in shiny black letters
benjamin
feligi
aged 48 years
much loved husband and father
we all cried at the grave
even tar
when auntie put the flowers on it
in the photo on his grave
uncle ben looks like he was a nice man
july 10
i didn't go to school today
i wanted to
but it's a long way and i have to get
the bus
and the bus ticket costs a lot of money
auntie said she didn't have any money
left
she was getting angry with me
so i thought i will walk to school
tomorrow instead of getting the bus
today
i tried to do my schoolwork by myself at
home
but i didn't do very well
july
11
i am very tired tonight
this morning i got up at six o'clock and
made some sandwiches for my lunch
and i left before any of the others were
up
it was still dark
and very scary because there was nobody
in the streets
i walked right down dominion road
and slowly the sky got lighter
my school bag was hurting my shoulder
and i was trying to remember the way the
bus went
from the time when i had a ticket
in the end
i got to the school
but it took a long long time
and i was late
and the teacher at the gate took my name
and i had a detention
that was the first time i ever had one
my class teacher mrs price
asked me why i was late
i didn't like to tell her my auntie
didn't have any money for the bus
so i said i slept in
mrs price asked me how i was getting on
here
and she seemed a bit worried
at lunchtime
she brought a fifth form girl called
moana
who was from my country
to see me
moana and i talked in our language
she doesn't come from my island
but i knew some cousins of hers
i enjoyed talking to moana
but it made me sad
because i began thinking about home
and all the people i knew
when i told moana about walking to
school
she took me to the school library
and showed me a street map
we saw that there was a much shorter way
for me to come to school
i don't have to follow the bus route
moana asked me if i would like to come
to her place one day
but
i saw on the map
that she lives at te atatu
too far away from my place
i walked home that quick away that i
found on the map
but
because of my detention
i didn't get home until six o'clock
i am very tired tonight
i can't ride anymore
july
12
auntie gave me two dollars this morning
i had to decide if i will spend it on
the bus fare
or some lunch
there was only fried bananas for
breakfast
because auntie doesn't get paid until
tomorrow
so
i decided to walk to school and buy my
lunch
at the end of one street there was a
bridge over the motorway that was just
for pedestrians
i stopped and looked down at the
motorway
all those cars
it was like a great river running into
the city
then it started to rain
it rained and rained
very heavy
like it does at home
but very cold
i don't have a coat or jacket
so i got wet through
on my hair down my neck on my legs in my
shoes
i kept on walking towards school
and getting wetter and wetter and colder
and colder
then i saw a clock on a building that
said five minutes to nine
that was too late for school
so i turned round and walked home again
and i was so cold
i had to get into bed to keep warm
i didn't get up
until marlene came home from school
july
13.
auntie is working daytime at the factory
now
so she told marlene and me to stay home
from school
and do the shopping
we walked to the supermarket
and after we had done the shopping there
was some money left over
we were very hungry
so
i got us some kentucky fried chicken for
lunch
it was so good
marlene and i took the chicken to the
park
and hit it there
when people went past us they stared
i knew they were thinking
why aren't those girls at school
maybe they would tell the police
so i said to marlene
come on
we ought to get home now
i felt bad about using auntie's money
for kentucky fried chicken
and i told marlene not to say we had it
i won't do that again
i went to bed in the afternoon
i didn't feel very well
my head aches
and i think i'm getting a cold
july
18
i didn't write in my diary for a few
days
because i stayed in bed with a really
bad cold
i felt miserable
i've missed a lot of school now
and i don't know how i will catch up
exams are next month
and i'm very worried about them
always at home i did well in exams
but i can't hear
i lie on my bed
and stare at my photos
and the trochus shell that papa gave me
when i put the shell to my ear
i can hear the lagoon whispering to me
the trochus shells are very special to
us
once every year
the people from the villages can get the
trochus from the lagoon
but only a few for each family
so there will always be more for next
year
the shells are polished for the tourists
but papa polished this strokus
just for me
and it is so beautiful
with all the different colors
it is like holding a rainbow in my hand
even the darkness here
doesn't stop the trochus from shining
july 19
i had a very bad day today
when i woke up
i decided i must go to school
and catch up my work
so i will do well in exams
and get a good report to send home to
mama and papa
so
i said to auntie
i'm going back to school i'm walking but
please could i have some money for my
lunch
then auntie got very mad
and she shouted at me
i've got no money left for you i haven't
even got enough money for my own
children
why did you have to come here anyway
i told her i didn't really want to come
and i'm sorry for all this trouble i am
giving her
i said
i don't like it here and i want to go
home
auntie got even angrier and said she
didn't even have enough money for the
bus
so how is she going to pay for a plane
ticket
she said
she didn't ask me to come here
she only said yes
because she couldn't say no to her
family
she said
if i want to go home
my family should send the money to pay
and i said they couldn't
because they spent all their money
sending me here
i felt really miserable then
and ran out of the room crying
everything here is money
money for food money for buses
money for warm clothes money for shoes
back home
we only need money for the motorbike
and a bit of food from the shop
we get everything from the lagoon and
the fields
and we don't worry about money
but here
money makes me frightened
because there isn't enough
and i feel bad that auntie has to get
more because of me
i don't know what to do
there is no telephone here to ring
or at home
all i can do is lie on my bed
and stare at my photos
and hold my trochus shell
no school again today
july
20
raining again
i didn't go to school
i did some cleaning in the house
and watched some tv
there was a knock on the door
but i didn't answer it
the person put a letter in the letterbox
and later
i went out to get it
it was a dress to auntie
and i opened it
it said because i hadn't been to school
my auntie should visit the school
immediately
i put the letter in the rubbish
i don't want auntie to get mad again
but i'm
worried
i know it's against the law to not go to
school but i can't go back
i'm too far behind
perhaps i can leave school
and get a job in an office
that would help auntie with the money
july
21
so much happened today
i never had a day like it in my life
tar gave me some money for the bus
and told me how to get downtown
i caught the bus
and ended up in queens street
the first time i have been there
so many grand buildings
it was like a tv program
i began to walk up queen street
but there was a freezing cold wind
and then it started to rain
and felt even colder
i couldn't stop staring in the shop
windows
all those lovely things
in one shop they were ceiling holidays
and there was a big photograph of home
showing my island
it was a very beautiful picture
the lagoons so blue
and the sea all around so dark
and the whiteness
where the waves break on the reef round
the lagoon
i wanted to say to people in the street
look
there's my island
isn't it beautiful
but all the people were just hurrying
past
not stopping
not noticing
i kept on walking up queen street
i was looking for a clothes shop
because i needed a jacket
the wind went right through my clothes
i felt i wasn't wearing anything at all
i came to a very big shop
and went in
there were lots and lots of jackets
but i saw one of the shop people staring
at me
so i went back out into the cold
and kept on walking
after a while
i came to another shop which sold
jackets
i was very worried about what i was
going to do but i was so cold
and i didn't really care how wrong it
was
i just didn't want to get caught
i went into the shop
and started looking at the jackets
i had a white supermarket bag in my
and i got it out
took a blue jacket
and put it in the bag as quickly as i
could
my hands were shaking
and i wanted to run but instead
i walked around slowly
and pretended to look at some coats
then i walked out
i didn't stop
until i got to the bridge over the
motorway
i took out the jacket
and saw the price on it
125
i put it on
it was so warm
it's got wool inside and it keeps the
rain out and everything
i wore it to just before i got home
then
i put it back in the bag
and hid it under my bed
july 22
i couldn't sleep all last night
it was very bad to take that jacket from
the shop
the church says you must not steal
and i can't forget that
i have heard it all my life
i won't wear the jacket again
i am too ashamed
and frank did not steal
not even food when she was nearly dead
from hunger
july
23
saturday today
tar got three videos
all fighting and shooting
i can hear through the wall
and it sounds like a war is going on
at home
on saturday night
we used to go across to the big holiday
hotel
on the little island of tokoa
we used to sit under the trees and have
fruit drinks
and watch the dancing for the tourists
it was beautiful there
and i love the dancing and the music
i want to dance at tokoa when i am older
i decided what to do about the jacket
on monday
i will take it back to the shop
july
25
so much happened today
i will have to write it down very
carefully to make sure i don't miss
anything
when i woke up
i put the jacket in my school bag
and told my auntie i'm going to school
i walked into town
and waited until it was after nine
o'clock
then
i walked to the shop
there weren't many people inside
and i went over to where the jackets
were and quickly started to take the
jacket out of my bag
but as i did it
i looked up
and saw a lady with gray hair
watching me from the other side of some
dresses
she saw what i was doing
and came over
what are you doing did you take this
she said
her voice was very cross
i couldn't explain to her that i was
bringing it back because i had taken it
before
i thought she wouldn't believe me
she said
come with me
and she took my arm
and we went over to the back of the shop
i started to cry
we went into an office
and there was a man in there sitting at
a desk
he was a young man
in a suit
the lady told him she had found me
taking the jacket
and the man said is this right
and i just nodded
i couldn't stop crying
so i couldn't explain
i will have to go to court i thought
and my family will be so ashamed of me
the man told me to sit down
and he rang someone on his telephone
it's a shoplifter he said
then the man asked me my name
and my address
and my school
and i told him those things
after a bit a police lady came in
and the shop lady went out
the police lady was young and pretty
with dark hair
she sat down
and asked me questions in a kind voice
and it was easier to talk to her than
those other ones
i told her all about the jacket
and what i
did she said to the man
i think she's telling the truth
and i think we should talk to someone
from the school first
the man looked cross but he said
all right
i have to agree
this is unusual
very unusual the police lady said
i never heard of a shoplifter who took
back what she stole
she smiled at me
and asked
who would you like us to talk to from
school
when mrs price came in
she looked just as usual
not worried or anything
but i started crying again
because i was so ashamed
and she sat down next to me and said
don't worry to aine
everything will be all right
then she and the police lady talked
and they seemed really friendly to each
other
i don't think the shop manager liked
that
and he still looked angry
mrs price asked me why i hadn't been to
school
she has got gray hair
but her face is young
and she talks in a very kind way
i told her about the money and auntie
and my uncle
and how he was killed
and about the exams
and how i was worried about them
and how i got cold when i went out
and how i took the jacket
i said i was very ashamed for what i did
when my story was finished
mrs price looked at the police lady
and then they both looked at the manager
the police lady said
the jacket has been returned mr jackson
and i really don't think this girl is a
thief
the manager didn't look at her
but he nodded his head
i said to him
i'm very sorry i took your jacket
i will never do it again
he stood up
and nodded again
and mrs price said
i'll take you home now
to aine
mrs price and i sat in her car outside
my house
she talked slowly
and i felt she was thinking deeply about
everything she was saying
she said
we can give you extra lessons at school
to help you catch
and i'll find out
if your auntie can get some money from
the government
i'm sure she can
that will help with the clothes problem
then
mrs price stopped
and she looked at me for a long time
without speaking
she has very clear gray eyes
very kind and understanding
and her eyes
seemed to see a long way into me
or
she said in a slow voice
would you just like us to arrange
for you to go home
i looked back into those gray kind eyes
the way she said it
i knew it was really possible
tears came back into my eyes
through them
i saw a house
and
faces and the lagoon
shining and blue
i would like to go home
i said
you
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应该给年轻人生活机会，
尤其是接受
良好教育的机会，
有时
这意味着要去另一个
远离家乡
和家人的国家学习
Young
tuaine 在新西兰上学，
但她的家
位于南海岛屿
上
泻湖像天空一样蓝
[音乐]
6 月
20 日
我要用这个大笔记本
做我的日记
，写下我的所有感受，
我离开家时把这本书带在身上
我用它来写
英语 我回家的学校
，当我离开时，还有
很多页面没有写，
所以
在家里
写日记会很好 我读了一个叫做安妮弗兰克日记的故事，
这是一个非常悲伤的故事，
但我读了很多次
安说
，把事情写下来让她感觉好多
了，
它帮助她解决了
她遇到的所有麻烦，
所以
也许我的日记明天也会帮助我感觉好
一点。距离
我离开家来到这里已有两个月了
61 天
只有两个数字，当我 写下来 就像
那样
61 天，
但这是我能记得的最慢和最长的时间
61 天怎么会过得如此缓慢，
我仍然一直想家
，我记得
岛上的每一件小事，
除了
它有多温暖
我不记得了 因为
这里
一直都很冷，
但是当我躺在
这里闭上眼睛时，
我可以看到我的朋友
和家人
，所有我最喜欢的地方
，还有我们在泻湖里游泳的黑色大岩石，
还有通往 我们
的山顶和山顶凉爽的风，
如果有时我不记得
所有的东西，
还有我床边的照片
和我所有的贝壳
当我还是个婴儿时，
我被送给了我的祖父母，
因为我是我们家中最小的
那是我们的习俗，
我真正的父母住在另一个岛上，
我们的村庄被称为
我们的房子，而我们的房子
离穿过村庄的山路稍远，
当最后一场叫做沙龙的大风暴来袭时
，泻湖的海浪来了
超过 这条路，
但没有到我们的花园，
幸运
的是，风把我们花园里的所有花都吹走了，
但至少屋顶留在我们的
房子上，
不像在混战的地方，
一块巨大的金属从
房子的屋顶上吹了下来
， 砍掉他们的山羊头
这对可怜的动物
来说太可怕了 我们村里发生了一些不好的事情，
比如沙龙
，还有一些摩托车事故，
但大多数都是好事
，我记得好事
不是坏事
学校也很好
我在大学里很喜欢它，
而且我几乎总是在班上名列前茅，
但我很抱歉现在
它名列前茅
，这可能让我离开了
我们在第一学期有考试
，我在每次考试中都名列前茅，
阿什顿先生 老师
来到我们家
对妈妈和爸爸说我们
岛上的学校
对我来说不够好
，我应该去新西兰上学
妈妈和爸爸把这件事告诉乔治叔叔
我很担心
因为我没有 哇 不打算离开，
但他们又和阿什顿先生谈了这件事
，我全家都花了一些钱买
了飞机，
然后把我送到了
瓦林阿姨瓦恩阿姨瓦恩阿姨
是我母亲的表妹
，她在奥克兰生活
了 20 多年，
有四个 我们在她家
tar 姨妈
他 17 岁
marlene
和我
marlene 我和我睡在同一个卧室
她六岁
我到达后的一周
姨妈给我买了一件制服
，我开始上女子大学
我现在必须停止我的日记
了 视频结束了
，marlene 想在
6 月
25
日上床睡觉，
阿姨很友好，
她问我关于家的
一切，以及她很久没见的所有关系
，她告诉我她小时候经常做的事情
在岛上
然后她问
我从岛上带了多少钱
，我说我没有带
，她有点生气
我告诉她妈妈和爸爸没有
钱给我
，他们 告诉我阿姨有一份好
工作
，赚的很多 有钱的
阿姨说她在鸡肉厂工作，
但她没有得到多少钱
，大部分都用于支付房子的租金
然后
我问她我的叔叔在哪里
我一开始不想问他
因为也许他已经离开了她，或者
是什么事情
阿姨开始
哭着告诉我
本叔叔为一家建造桥梁的建筑公司工作的事故
有
一天，那些很长很重的金属片
掉到了他身上，
他的背被摔断了
，他死在了 医院
我告诉她
我很抱歉我不知道这
起事故
家里没有人听说过
她说
本叔叔不是来自我们的岛屿
他是从哪里来
所以她只告诉他的家人
我当时真的为阿姨感到难过
可惜我
在她 7 月 1 日没有足够的钱时来和她住在一起
我最近无法在日记中写字
我有太多的功课要
上学 在这里很辛苦，
但是老师们
很好 班主任夫人价格是最好的
太好了，
她向我介绍了很多女孩，
但她们不是来自我的岛屿，
她们的萨摩亚人
，她们的语言对我来说很陌生。
学校太大
了，超过一千个女孩
，房间太多，
在有学生的学校里太可怕了 这么多
陌生人
每个人似乎都比我聪明
他们的英语很好
我努力跟上
但我的分数比我在家的低很多
我没有足够的时间做我的工作
这是
阿姨晚上工作的麻烦
鸡肉工厂
和我每天晚上都得吃晚饭
我唯一可以学习的地方是
卧室，
而且每天晚上视频的噪音都很糟糕
焦油会收到一些视频，而且总是
充满枪击、战争和
大喊大叫，
我讨厌 那个西尔维斯特史泰龙
我觉得塔拉也看
那种视频
玛琳
昨天
我去问塔尔他能不能
把视频关掉，
因为我想在我的房间里学习
，他很生气，对我大喊大叫
他觉得他很
特别 多笑
他只是一个找不到工作的愚蠢男孩
他不会拒绝
我现在
7 月
5 日要睡觉的视频。
今天是星期天
但我们没有去教堂
阿姨 以前去教堂，但
现在她再也不去了，
当我问
她为什么说她不再相信上帝时
，
我觉得那很可怕
，我问她为什么
说这是因为上帝把
本叔叔从他们身边带走了，留给他们 没有
人照顾他们
而且没有足够的钱
我不知道这是否正确
但我能理解阿姨的
感受
我不确定上帝
他有时会非常残忍
甚至对像安妮弗兰克和本叔叔这样的好人
下午
我们乘公共汽车去参观本叔叔的
坟墓
灰色的石头上有一张亮黑色字母的微笑照片
本
杰明费利吉 48 岁
深受爱戴的丈夫和父亲
我们都在坟墓前哭了，
当阿姨把花放在坟墓上时，我们都哭了。
在他坟墓上的照片中，
本叔叔看起来很不错 男人
7 月 10 日
我今天没去上学
我想去，
但是路很远，我
必须坐公共汽车
，而且公共汽车票要花很多钱
阿姨说她没钱
了，
她很生气 我，
所以我想明天我会步行去上学，
而不是
今天
坐公共汽车 我试着在家里自己做功课，
但我做得不好
7
月 11 日
我今晚很累
今天早上六点起床 时钟，
为我的午餐做了一些三明治
，我在其他任何人起床之前离开
了
它仍然
很黑，非常可怕，因为街上没有人
我沿着自治领路走下去
，天空慢慢变亮了
我的书包伤了我的 肩膀
，我试图记住
从我有票的时候公共汽车
的路线最后
我到了学校，
但是花了很长时间
，我迟到
了，门口的老师取了我的名字
，我 有一个拘留
，这是我第一次有一个
我的班级教员 她的价格夫人
问我为什么迟到
我不想告诉她我的阿姨
没有钱坐公共汽车
所以我说我睡在
价格夫人问我在这里过得怎么样
她似乎有点担心
午餐时间，
她带来了一个名叫 moana 的五年级女孩
，她来自我的国家
，来看我
moana，我用我们的语言交谈，
她不是来自我的岛屿，
但我知道她的一些表亲，
我喜欢和 moana 交谈，
但这让我感到难过
因为
当我告诉莫阿娜步行去学校时，
我开始
想家和我认识的所有人 不必走公共汽车路线
moana 问我是否愿意
有一天去她家，
但
我在地图上
看到她住在 te atatu
离我家太远
我走回家的速度很快，我
发现 地图，
但
由于我被拘留，
我直到六点才
回家 今晚
我很累我不能再骑了
7
月 12 日
阿姨今天早上给了我两美元
我不得不决定是
花在公共汽车车费上
还是午餐
上 早餐只有炸香蕉，
因为阿姨要到直到
明天
所以
我决定步行去学校买
午餐
在一条街的尽头高速公路上有一座仅供行人使用的
桥
我停下来看着
高速公路上
所有的汽车
就像一条大河
流入 城市
然后开始
下雨下雨了，雨下
得很大，
就像在家里一样，
但是
很冷 去学校
，越来越湿，
越来越冷，
然后我看到一座建筑物上的时钟，上面
写着五分钟到九点
，上学已经太晚了，
所以我转身又走回家
，我太冷了，
我不得不上床睡觉 为了保暖
我没有 起床
直到marlene
7月
13
日放学回家。阿姨现在白天在工厂工作，
所以她告诉marlene和我
不要放学回家
购物，
我们步行去超市
，购物后
有一些钱 剩下的
我们很饿，
所以
我给我们买了一些肯德基炸鸡作为
午餐，
这真是太好了
玛琳，我把鸡带到
公园
，然后
当人们经过我们时，他们盯着它，
我知道他们在想
为什么不是那些 学校里的女孩
也许她们会告诉警察
所以我对玛琳说，
快点
我们现在应该回家
了
我下午睡觉了
我感觉不太好
我的头疼
，我想我感冒了
7
月 18 日
我有几天没写日记了，
因为我得了重感冒躺在床上
我感到很痛苦，
我错过了很多学校
哦，现在我不知道下个月我会如何赶上
考试
，我很担心他们
总是在家里我考试考得很好
但我听不见
我躺在
床上盯着我的照片
和
当我把贝壳放在耳边时，爸爸给我的 trochus 贝壳
我能听到泻湖对我耳语
trochus 贝壳对我们来说非常特别，
每年一次
，村里的人可以
从泻湖中得到 trochus，
但只有少数 给每个家庭，
所以明年总会有更多
贝壳是为游客抛光的，
但爸爸只为我抛光了这个 strokus
，它是如此美丽，
有各种不同的颜色
，就像我手里拿着彩虹一样，
即使是这里的黑暗
并没有阻止 trochus 的闪耀
7 月 19
日 今天我度过了非常糟糕的一天，
当我醒来时，
我决定我必须去上学
，赶上我的工作，
这样我才能在考试中
取得好成绩，并拿到一份好报告寄回家给
妈妈 和爸爸，
所以
我对阿姨说
我要回学校了 正在说话，但
请给我一些钱
吃午饭
然后阿姨很生气
，她冲我大喊
我没有钱给你我
什至没有足够的钱给我自己的
孩子
为什么你还是要来这里
我告诉她我真的不想来
，我很抱歉
给她带
来了这么多麻烦我说
我不喜欢这里，我想回家
阿姨更生气了说她
根本不想 有足够的钱买
公共汽车她怎么买机票
她说
她没有让我来这里
她只说是
因为她不能对她的家人说不
她说
如果我想回家
我的家人应该寄钱来付钱
，我说他们不能，
因为他们把所有的钱都花在了
把我送到这里时
我感到非常痛苦，
然后跑出房间哭着
说这里的一切都是
钱吃饭的钱公共汽车的
钱钱买暖和的衣服 回家买鞋的钱
我们只需要买摩托车的钱
和一些食物 商店
我们从泻湖和田野里得到所有东西
，我们不担心钱，
但这里的
钱让我害怕，
因为没有足够
的钱，我很难过阿姨必须得到
更多，因为我
我不知道该怎么做 家里
没有电话可以响
吗 我能做的就是躺在我的
床上盯着我的
照片拿着我的 trochus shell
今天又没有上学
7
月 20 日又
下雨了
我没去上学
我做了一些清洁工作
进屋看了看电视
有人敲门
但我没有回答
那人在信箱里放了一封信
后来
我出去
拿它是给阿姨的衣服
我打开
它说因为我 没上过学
我阿姨应该马上去学校
我把信
扔进垃圾箱 我不想阿姨再生气，
但我
担心
我知道不去学校是违法的，
但我可以 t go back
我太落后了，
也许我可以离开学校
，在一个办公室里找到一份工作
d 帮阿姨拿钱
7
月 21 日
今天发生了这么多
我一生中从未有过这样的一天
tar 给了我一些公共汽车的钱
并告诉我如何去市中心
我赶上了公共汽车
并第一次来到了皇后
街 我去过
那么多宏伟的建筑
，就像一个电视节目
我开始沿着皇后街走，
但是有一股冰冷的风
，然后开始下雨
，感觉更冷了，
我无法停止盯着商店
橱窗
看那些 可爱的东西
在一家商店他们是天花板假期
，有一张家庭的大照片
展示了我的岛屿
这是一张非常美丽的
照片泻湖如此蓝色
，周围的大海如此黑暗
以及
海浪在泻湖周围的礁石上拍打的白色
我想对街上的人说，
看看我的岛
是不是很漂亮，
但所有的人都只是匆匆
过去，
没有停下来，
没有注意到
我一直在皇后街上走，
我在找一家服装店，
因为我需要一个
夹克 风穿过我的衣服
我觉得我什么都没穿
我来到一家很大的商店
，进去了，
那里有很多很多夹克，
但我看到一个商店的人
盯着我看，
所以我回去了 冒着
冷风继续走
一会儿，
我来到了另一家卖
夹克的商店 不想被抓住
我走进
商店开始看夹克
我口袋里有一个白色的超市袋
，我把它拿出
来拿了一件蓝色夹克
，尽快把它放进袋子里
我的手在颤抖
， 我想跑但是
我慢慢地走来
走去假装看着一些外套
然后我走了
我没有停下
直到我到达高速公路上的桥
我拿出
夹克看到上面的价格
125
我放了它
上面很暖和
，里面有羊毛，可以
防雨。 7 月 22 日
，我在回家前把它穿到
了包里
，然后把它藏在我的床底下，我
昨晚整晚都睡不着
，从商店里拿走那件夹克很糟糕，
教堂说你必须 不偷
，我不能忘记，
我这辈子都听过
我不会再穿这件夹克了
我太惭愧了
，弗兰克甚至没有偷
食物，当时她几乎
饿死了
7
月 23 日，
星期六，今天，
焦油得了三个
我能隔着墙听到所有打斗
和射击的视频，听起来周六
晚上家里
正在打仗
水果饮料
，为游客观看舞蹈，
那里很美
，我喜欢舞蹈和音乐
，我长大后想在 tokoa 跳舞
25
今天发生了这么多，
我得写下来 自己非常
小心，以确保我醒来时不会错过
任何东西
我把夹克放在书包
里告诉我阿姨我要去上学
我走进
城里等到九点
以后然后
我 走到商店
里面人不多
，我走到夹克所在
的地方，迅速开始
从包里拿出夹克，
但当我这样做时，
我
抬头看到一位白发的女士在
看着我 一些衣服的另一面
她看到我在做什么
然后过来
你在做什么 你拿了这个
她说
她的声音很生气
我无法向她解释我
要把它拿回来 因为我
在
我想之前就拿走了 她不相信我
她说
跟我
来 她挽着我的
胳膊 我们走到商店后面
穿西装
的男人 女士告诉他，她发现我
拿走了夹克
，男人 sai d 这是对的
，我只是点点头，
我忍不住哭了，
所以我无法解释
我将不得不上法庭
他的
电话是小偷，他说
然后那个男人问我的名字
和地址
和我的学校
，我告诉他这些
事情过了一会儿，一个警察进来了
，那个店里的女人出去
了那个警察小姐年轻漂亮，
有一头黑发
她坐下
来用和蔼的声音问我问题，
与其他人交谈比与她交谈更容易，
我告诉她关于夹克
和我
做了什么她对那个男人说
我认为她说的是实话
，我认为我们应该
先跟学校里
的人说话 那人看起来很生气，但他说
好吧
我不得不同意
这很不寻常
非常不寻常 警察女士说
我从来没有听说过一个小偷
拿回她偷的东西
她对我笑了笑问
你会是谁
当 p 夫人时，喜欢我们在学校交谈 饭进来了，
她看起来像往常一样
不担心或什么，
但我又开始哭了，
因为我很羞愧
，她坐在我旁边
说别担心，
一切都会好起来的，
然后她和警察小姐说话
了 他们看起来真的很友好
我不认为商店经理喜欢
这样
，他仍然看起来很生气
价格夫人问我为什么我没有
上过学
她头发花白
但她的脸很年轻
而且她说话很
我以善意的方式告诉她关于钱、阿姨
和我叔叔的事
，他是如何被杀的
，还有考试的事
，我是如何担心他们的
，我出去的时候是怎么感冒的，我是
怎么穿上夹克的，
我说我很惭愧
当我的故事结束时我做了什么
普赖斯夫人看了看警察小姐
，然后他们俩都看了看
经理 警察小姐
说夹克已经退了 杰克逊先生
，我真的不认为这个女孩是
小偷 经理没有 不看她，
但他点了点头
迪对他说
对不起，我拿了你的夹克，
我再也不会这样做了
说得很慢
，我觉得她在深入思考
她所说的一切她说
我们可以在学校给你额外的课程
来帮助你赶上
，我会
看看你的阿姨是否可以从政府那里得到一些钱，
我相信她可以
这将有助于解决衣服问题
然后
价格夫人停了下来
，她看着我很长时间
没有说话
她有一双非常清澈的灰色眼睛
非常善良和
理解 她的眼睛
似乎很远看我
或者
她用缓慢的声音说
你愿意我们
安排你回家吗？
我回头看着她说的那双灰色和蔼的眼睛
我知道
眼泪真的有可能通过它们重新回到我的眼睛里
我看到了一座房子和一张
脸，还有
闪闪发光的泻湖 蓝色
我想回家
我说你