Conquer your fears to live your dream
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as a person who was born a small village
and conservative society
definition of success it’s very simple
it’s defined as obtaining the basic
needs in life what are the basic needs
find a job marry a woman
that’s will be called housewife
all her life and she can bear as much as
kids as she can
more better uh
education never been part of it but if
you’re educated
then it’s better
growing up and
thinking that i have to wait that 12
years of study
and schooling to be finished and i can
find a job
and then marriage
somehow the idea of it it was bothering
me because there were so many questions
in my head
who am i uh what i want to be
and is that i’m gonna
do gonna make me happy and so many other
questions
and one big question was in my head that
when i reached 50 if someone asked me
uh what are your achievement in life and
will i have an answer for that
but i wasn’t brave enough to
ask those questions
to anyone um
by the age of 18
when i finished my school and uh
i went abroad to
for university so i realized
i can ask more
it’s fine also to ask yourself
it’s fine questioning yourself it’s fine
to analyze which is
in that society maybe wasn’t allowed
that much
because you’ve been told somehow that
you’re limited and you won’t be able to
answer
so many questions so it’s better not to
ask
so i thought maybe
it’s better to just follow the path
of everyone and that’s what they did
i studied and as soon as i finished my
bachelor
i went back to uae the place where
i grew up no i try to find a job
like every youngster after the
university
i wanted to change the world but it
wasn’t that easy
so i thought let’s start from myself
first
i tried to find a job it wasn’t that
easy
and uh it took me so long
uh to find a job after six months almost
every week five times a week
interviewing
or being interviewed i found a job
what was the job putting fires
in the places wasn’t that great
it took me only a week to change my job
and then i found another job
which was uh at the beginning it was
uh full of excitement a salesperson who
can
go from one office to another office
from one meeting to another meeting
but that excitement
ends soon as well i decided that
uh my goal is
i’m gonna just get my master degree
and be a manager of the company and
that’s going to be my ultimate goal
so i work on it and i try to find
another job which is that
can pay the university bills that is
was so expensive
so what happened is
luckily i found a job and i started my
master education
in a university which was 150
kilometers away from where i was living
so uh for five days a week
every day 300 kilometers i was driving
for one and a half year
that’s mean you’re sleeping
three to four hours per day if you’re
lucky
i was waking up early morning working
out
going to the job and
then leaving job at 4-5 or let’s say
escaping from job at 4-5
and driving to university coming back
late night
studying and that was the daily routine
by 2011 i
reached the management position i was
the public relations manager of the
company
and the same year
i got my master degree so
i guess i reached the ultimate goal
but a month later i resigned from
my position and i
reasoned i wasn’t happy
as simple as that
i just decided i said till when i’m
gonna leave i don’t know
i mean at least let me do what i love to
do
so i started an acting
job uh with no experience
zero experience not on a stage
not in front of camera i wanted to be an
actor that was my decision everybody was
was no one was taking me serious because
you know
after you reach the management position
and you have the master degree which is
you
pay so much for it and you try
so many years for it and then suddenly
in a month
time you just decide to say oh by the
way it wasn’t me all these years
i was somehow prepared somehow
i thought i’m prepared for this job to
be
you know homeless uh not being able to
pay rent and all those but what
i wasn’t prepared uh it was
failing uh failure
because in the society they tell you
don’t fail if you fail that’s the end
but acting taught me something else
every day is a new life every moment is
in your life and
it’s a new beginning when
i started in 2011 i had no idea about
acting about
filmmaking nothing and all i knew
i just loved this job
and it didn’t take me
long to understand it’s not all about
education it’s
it’s mainly about passion
somehow i was breathing
when i was on set and i knew that that’s
a place where i want to be
even failure
was coming back to back and from day one
i wanted to enter bollywood industry i
mean it was a joke those days
because you know millions of people they
try to enter bollywood and uh for a
person who’s
outside who lives outside india and want
to come to the bollywood
it was a joke and you don’t speak india
as well
so uh then i decide to
just not talk about my dreams and just
work on it
years working on different
movies different plays
different cereal
i was trying my luck and then by 2015
i i did
two films and one serial which is i
thought is
gonna change my life uh 2016
the first movie released
i guess only a few people they watched
it
the crew plus some other people
and the cereal
i wasn’t noticed but then there was this
british film which i was part of it
and
movies start with my scene so it’s very
interesting scene
so before the release of the film i read
in
news that it got nominated
for bath award and from
england also it’s going to be sent to
oscar
that was great news and i posted on
social media only three hours later
my director sent me a message
to say i’m sorry we had to
remove that scene your scene
from the final cut that was
disheartening
but uh it was
a few hours till i go back to work again
people said look you try hard all these
years
it doesn’t work sometimes for some
people doesn’t work
i didn’t believe that
i thought no i mean first of all you’re
enjoying it
i mean even it comes with a lot of
failure but you’re enjoying it
so a year later i was in
the biggest bollywood movie of the year
in front of the biggest superstar
mr salman khan in india
that was shocking for so many people who
said how you can reach there
and after that also when
after release of the the movie
i packed my bag to go to india
everyone told me that’s nothing wise
if it works one it doesn’t mean it’s
worth in-game
uh i went to india 2018
and 2019
i started to
work with one of the finest director of
the country mr nireswander
on one of the biggest
show in india special ops
what i’m thinking about all these years
uh
why this happened to me because
i put the fear away i
i forgot the fear i
listened to my heart it sound cliche but
yes i listened
to my heart till today
when i go for a meeting for work or
film first of all i ask myself
how i feel uh i don’t ask my
so what they were thinking that’s the
first question
if i feel good about it i will do it
yes i listen to my heart i put the fear
away
so i’m still an actor in bollywood
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