Can You Show Me Your Diary
[Music]
i am
a little introverted
so it’s difficult for me to make new
friends in person
i prefer reading people’s thoughts
via text or stalking people i’m not the
only one
and since you’re all here right now i’d
like to get to know you
with that in mind can you please
kindly show me
your diary i know do not turn to today’s
date
let’s flip back a few pages let’s flip
back to the month
of january show me your resolutions
show me just how wild your imagination
can run uninterrupted show me
your mustard seed size of dreams show me
how you measure your own capabilities
what no one
is watching and if you feel like i’m
invading a little bit of your privacy i
can understand that
to be fair maybe
i should have started by showing you
mine
you see my diary looks
a little bit like a bootleg version
of the book of psalms my diary looks a
little bit
like the first three weeks of a brand
new relationship
my diary looks a little bit like two
minute microwaved prayers of emergency
my diary
looks like churches on a saturday night
empty and sometimes my diary
looks like that slow last conversation
right before a breakup
sometimes my diary looks like a
condolence book
without felt messages going out to all
the people that we’ve lost this year my
diary is an onslaught
of thoughts and emotions loud like great
east road
and jumbo drive combined during a riot
my diary is loud like a blast at the
port
of the city of beirut loud like gunshots
or fireworks
sometimes it’s like i can’t breathe
between a knee
on my neck or gassing in my city my
diary
sometimes it’s like
fireworks or new year’s eve
sometimes it’s like a glorious countdown
into the new decade like
like 10 000 screaming fans
in an erupted woodland stadium goes to
show that dreams really do come true
regardless of your musical preferences
like nine to five jobs
are slowly wallowing on their deathbeds
we need to wake up like
like eight out of ten companies at some
point this year resorted
to working remotely and they’re looking
to do so even after the pandemic seven
other people lost their lives
in a tragic helicopter crash that
claimed the lives of kobe bryant
and daughter six
days into the month of august 2020
i lost one of my best friends to
diabetes
and saying that i miss him is is an
understatement
five plus 995 views on this poem is all
that i’m asking for no pressure
no pressure no pressure
for years even after his diagnosis
chadwick aaron bossman continued to give
us the best
of himself on our screen so of course of
course you forever be our
king three
nights was all it took for
a few friends of mine okay were broke so
three nights was all it took for a few
friends of mine to sell out
half the seats of an event without
actually printing the tickets
or through the power facebook and efts
two billion active
facebook users now i can’t over
emphasize the need to be socially
present as a brand
or company or an individual now one
there’ll always be that one person
who’ll never respond to your dms you’ll
get over it
now you see my diary
looks a little bit just a little bit
like a mess
like sunday morning bathroom marathons
in readiness for church when you’re late
my dad looks a little bit
actually a lot like me
and all that i’ve been through someone
told me if you want to make god laugh
tell him your plans what a comedy show
this year must have been for
him and honestly for me too
but my laughter wasn’t brewed from the
best of humor
it was a response to defeat to
limitation
to uncertainty to losses and our
generation is so poetic you can see it
with the memes and the quotes
we say stuff like elves don’t mean
losses anymore
they’re lessons
my l’s this year have looked a lot more
like lessons
a lot more like dead ends like trying to
use google maps in my neighborhood i get
nowhere and based on the energy right
here
i can tell somehow that my diary looks a
little bit like yours
after any tragedy we are often of the
perception that
all that we possess thereafter are
remnants
i’m of the idea that their requirements
requirements for the next stage in life
and collectively i think our diaries
have looked
a little bit like plan a plan b
plan c you name it our diaries have
looked like
the new normal zoo meetings
e-learning face max they have looked
like the end
of an era and i was talking to this
crazy wise man
and he told me kid
you know the new structure of the modern
company
will consist of only a man and a dog
i was like what it was like listen
the man will be there strictly to feed
the dog
and the dog will be there precisely to
keep the man from touching their
automated equipment i was like
okay but slowly i’m starting to see it
and as a new year beckons i might just
wing this
i might just wait until we get new
diaries or journals
or whatever you call them and maybe then
they will look a little bit more like
a new blueprint for eden instead of the
usual applications to join
a crumbling system in a nutshell
our diaries have looked like
pruning but once the vine dresser
is done pruning his branches
it’s impossible for those branches not
to thrive
so once again now
can you show me your diary