A Love Letter To Every Black Mans Higher Self
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foreign
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hi my name is elis griffin
oliver the dude and i am a card-carrying
white supremacist
i live inside your mind and sure i like
some negroes but only the educated ones
the negroes that are softer on the
palate
not nigger-ish speaking of
i hate
make it harder for the
upstanding and
astute negro are sloppy and
embarrassing
besmirch our progress
and shame our forefathers
you don’t like the way i talk donkey
well tough duty
you created me yes you did
i serve as a constant reminder that you
hate yourself
i am a collection of your past failures
your traumas
your insecurities and your trapped
emotions
this has been a public service
announcement
from um news number one in your news
for the culture
when is the last time you gave yourself
a compliment
how often do you criticize yourself i’m
so stupid
when is the last time you were truly
proud of yourself
high school college
how many of your past experiences are
you still ashamed of
you’re worried about your beak with old
boy when are you gonna forgive yourself
when is the last time you bet on
yourself in a high-stakes game of life
no one should be left alone inside your
head
are you in an abusive relationship with
yourself
you’ve been programmed to hate each
other starting with so
the most programmed keep it real
and why is keeping it real always
malicious
because we hate accessories that’s white
supremacy
but you know black men who love
themselves keep agreeing too
we keep it real by taking care of our
kids and our families
we keep it real by building our
communities together
we keep it real by always being our
brothers
and sisters keep oh we keep it real
my name is daryl i’m a doctor
my wife is gorgeous i have a beautiful
home
family i have
a perfect job perfect wife
perfect life
it’s not true
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it’s not true at all
disgust mirrors my fear infested
existence
being twice as good as average used to
make sense
i work harder for myself paid my boss a
lot of money
changing my perspective could help be
waiting on the world to change is a
cocoon
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married for 14 years now my wife 14.
and there’s something going on between
us pretty sure we put on a good show for
the public but
i think we may be growing apart
i mean i i didn’t know that marriage
meant i was supposed to keep you happy
uh i mean what am i your gesture i don’t
want to keep myself happy
you always talking you know
nothing’s ever good enough it’s never
enough
it’s like on this project that we’re
working on and you’re this perfect
portrait and that’s
i mean only way this works i mean
truly works this marriage
is if we’re both accountable for our
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i was listening to so what morning show
brother zoll talked about transactional
relationships
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that’s what i meant
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transactional marriage
i just want peace
peace
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before we go in to punch the old ticker
dim your light dimmer
much dimmer ah
there we go you work twice as hard and
be twice as
humble paint your smile
paint it you must be
chipper look i don’t
know what chipper means either but you
bit finally decided
to call somebody back nah now you got
your ass
trained well man you know me i’m always
good
how the are you yeah
yeah what
you finally did it jumped off that damn
cliff
wow wow
wow hey man look i’m proud of you man
but but i have to go but ain’t
describing two or two this weekend
yeah sunday works for me all right
one
paint it
hey how are you stan the man
for the last time i do not listen to
trap music
jill how was your weekend super
hey what’s up brother yeah becky
how the hell are you
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where i’m from where i went to school
to what career i sought from where i
lived
clothes out there it’s groundwork
i’ve been programmed like a computer
downloaded a live
the standard for greatness is faker than
a facebook friend
success is
white man i’m chasing what i can never
be i never wanted to be a doctor
obsessed with black men in the 80s with
lab coats
and stethoscopes
today i’m more of a drug dealer than i
am a doctor
i don’t cure anyone
i’ve known the pain dr burnout is so
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real
you know what i really want to do
i want to build a school to enlighten
and empower our kids
to define themselves on their terms by
mastering the science of their mind the
most beautiful person
in the world shines their light
living and loving in their purpose
and in their muse i’ve had that idea for
seven years now every time i try to try
to tell my wife she
wonders why any black person in their
right mind would give up a good job
because i’ve successfully integrated
into
the system right
then why am i so miserable
because deep down deep down
i know i meant for so much more
when i was a kid i wanted to be a
comedian i loved
prior bill cosby and murphy george
carlin and dale gibbons
bernie mac robin harris and on and on
and on
i think laughter is a priceless gift
there is nothing in the world like
spontaneous laughter
a big old laugh is a spiritual
experience a spiritual act
definitely it is i mean you’re laughing
with your entire body
tears running down your face you’re
hunched over or you’re running out of a
room
with the joy of a topic
laughter is my favorite love knowledge
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hey i
you
we
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are we growing apart
yeah i know the answer to that question
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i also know that your happiness is not
my responsibility
and i don’t want you being responsible
for mine
my job i hate it
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and i know deep down i know that there’s
something much more for me
i just hope that you respect that
you know i don’t want to give up on us
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i don’t want to give up on this but
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i’m no good to anybody i don’t know who
i am and
i’m not finding peace i mean before i
can take care of anybody else i gotta
learn how to take care of myself
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i just hope you understand
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yes
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benefits and love sums
disgust nearly as my fear of
festive existence just being an average
being twice as average used sense
i work hard for myself
made my boss a lot of money
changing my perceptions for help waiting
on the world to change
i challenged myself to change myself
fear inferno so i became the seed and
the soil
my journey switched from finding the
light to becoming the sunshine
my third eye viewpoint is so divine
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yeah
better on myself getting better with
myself
i beat that solution man what would it
be faction
can’t win broke with copy a new script
one voice from the depths of the
invisibles
third eye to focus whispering
you can do what i do at all you
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order mental shapes of infinite
possibilities i tore through the pain
sore and put through fear and suddenly
it’s so clean it’s so clear
my mind is a throne of liberty i’m free
and imagination only strengthens
our mind from darkness comes the bright
light
of the rise sun
how can one have faith in god or faith
itself
faith is quiet steel
faith is a divine whisper faith is an
action verb
faith is contagious faith is the power
of
peace faith is our shame