Getting Where
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something that i think about often
is how and when we grow and i know that
we are always changing
we are always evolving always being
reborn in some way
but i find that i’m more present to that
growth when i’m being present
to what i’m feeling in my body and this
year i have felt
a plethora of emotions i’ve felt anger
peace joy frustration sadness
so many more emotions but the more i
have been
present to what i have felt the more
present i’ve been to the change
happening within
these songs were all written before the
pandemic but they all deal with this
rejection or embracing of what i’m
feeling
so i offer them to you as little
offerings as beacons
of times when i have rejected my body of
times when i have not loved my body
and times when i realized my body is all
that i have
this first song is called am i safe
and it is about the experience of
fearing
what’s going on within and how that
makes
what i feel something really scary
but it also deals with how my friends
and relationships have helped me embrace
what i’m feeling
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so
am i safe here
in my body there’s
not much
to turn to besides me
i said for
you to go home i don’t
feel safe when you’re
here
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each time i feel my own body
support all the breaths
that i take i think
of those who sit with me and
give up
their hands from
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i choose to
to believe in you
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too
this next song is called talc and it
extends out of this image of a tree in
winter
and one of the ways you can tell a tree
is alive
in the wintertime is you cut underneath
the bark and there is green
and so the idea in this song is that no
matter what something looks like from
the outside
that usually there is some sort of
growth or change occurring
within
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sun has set on the canyon tonight
and i can’t get you out of my head
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all my wondering and all my
daydreams lead me back
to you again in the winter
with a part of me that seeks
to cut you down
away lord with
a part of me that sees
you on the ground
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watch me now walk around
my words like someone who don’t know
what they’re saying
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watch me now human
as they come try to love you
better better
i wish for green
green green
when you cut beneath the skin
i wish for green green
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after religion
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love do you have use for me love do you
have use for me
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i’m so soft the water dropped me dry
i mean loose among the walls of the
canyon
i’m so soft touch me
and i’d fall
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is
but the valley is
so green
this last song is called get and where
and when i think about my own growth
i mostly think about all of the tiny
moments that have made that growth occur
so all of the minutia that has allowed
for that and so this song
is about all of those little moments
i may seem young perhaps not
with all my wondering when all the old
women with gray in their hair
tell me mistakes are the only fear to
getting where you really wanna go
i can’t say that i often see
the world with much clarity
unless i’m looking at the grass
the window planes the helicopter getting
where
i really wanna go
yes i’m getting away wanna go
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some days i find it hard
to receive
thank god for my look at me
thank god for my friends who look at me
don’t please allow some space for
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he
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really wants to go
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then i may not tell you to your face
but man i’m trying to take up space
and i used to never say if i
would rather sleep a cry
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yes
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and
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yes