Online predators spread fake porn of me. Heres how I fought back Noelle Martin
[This talk contains graphic language
and descriptions of sexual abuse]
Can I get a show of hands
who here has ever Googled themselves?
I have.
But what started off
as momentary curiosity
very quickly turned
into an almost five-year horrific battle
that almost ruined my life.
I Google Images reverse-searched myself:
a function of Google
that allows you to upload an image
and it shows you
where it is on the internet.
This is me at 17 years old.
An innocent selfie I took before a party.
Now, before I continue, I must point out
that what I’m about to talk about
is very confronting and graphic.
But there’s no way out.
This is a very confronting issue.
In a split second,
my screen was flooded with that image
and dozens more images of me
that had been stolen from my social media,
on links connected to porn sites.
On these sites, nameless,
faceless sexual predators
had published highly explicit
sexual commentary about me
and what they’d like to do to me.
“Cover her face and we’d fuck her body,”
one person wrote.
They also published
identifying information about me:
where I lived, what I studied, who I was.
But things got worse.
I soon discovered
that these sexual predators
had doctored or photoshopped my face
onto the bodies of naked adult actresses
engaged in sexual intercourse,
on solo shots
of me being ejaculated on by two men.
Sperm was edited onto my face.
I was edited onto the cover of a porn DVD.
Perpetrators had edited my images
to give the effect that my blouse
was transparent or see-through,
so you could see my nipples.
Perpetrators ejaculated on images of me,
took photos of their sperm
and penises on these images
and posted them onto porn sites.
“Cum on printed pigs,”
is what they call it.
Now, you might be wondering,
what sorts of images
I posted on social media.
This is me, at around 19
at the Claremont Hotel,
just a few suburbs away.
And they superimposed that face into this.
And things got worse.
Nothing was off limits
for these predators.
They even posted an image
with my little sister on these sites too.
Now, you might be thinking,
“Well, you do dress provocatively,
even a little sexually suggestive,
attention seeking maybe.”
But just because
a woman’s body gets attention,
doesn’t mean she’s attention-seeking.
And what is provocative anyway,
what is sexually suggestive?
In some parts of the world,
showing your ankles
is promiscuous, is provocative.
It’s just like, no matter
what a woman wears,
it’s always perceived
as more sexual than it is.
For me, I just wanted
to feel pretty and confident.
What’s so wrong with that?
Now, you might be thinking,
“Well, can’t you just
set your social media on private?”
Well, these perpetrators were calculated.
They befriended my friends on social media
under fake profiles,
they followed the public galleries
of the events and places
I regularly visited.
But why?
Why should one have to retreat and hide
out of fear that something
like this could happen?
What I post and what I wear
isn’t an invitation
to violate and abuse me.
The only person that should be
changing their behavior
is the perpetrators.
(Applause)
Now, you might be thinking, why me?
Well, I’m just one
of the thousands upon thousands
of ordinary women
who are being preyed upon
in these mass-scale, horrific
online cultures, websites and threads
that are dedicated
to sexually exploiting and doctoring
ordinary images of women into porn.
As I speak,
there are women who are being preyed upon,
and they don’t even know it.
In the beginning, I tried seeking help.
I went to police,
I contacted government agencies,
I even tried to hire
a private investigator,
but they were too expensive.
There was nothing that they could do.
I mean, what could you do
when the sites are hosted overseas
and the perpetrators are from overseas?
I was told I had to contact
the sites one by one,
notifying the webmasters
to get everything deleted.
And so as you can imagine,
in complete and utter fear and pain,
I did.
I contacted the webmasters,
requesting that they delete
the material shared without consent.
And I had some successes,
but I also had some major setbacks.
The more I fought,
the more sites I would discover,
and with time, the more my images
were being seen and shared
in the tens of thousands.
I had one webmaster respond to me
saying he’ll only delete the site
if I sent him nude photos
of myself within 24 hours.
And this went on for years,
fighting against these
dodgy, disgusting sites.
But I was fighting a losing battle.
And I couldn’t continue this any longer
for my own mental health.
But what could I do?
Maybe, I thought, if I spoke out,
I could reclaim my name,
and I could rewrite my narrative
on my own terms.
Maybe if I spoke out,
I could raise awareness about this.
Maybe I could even try to change the law.
And so I did.
(Applause)
I spoke out publicly late last year
and news of my story
reverberated around the world.
But this was the response.
“She’s a fat, ugly slut, she’s a whore.”
“She’s an attention-seeking
piece of trash.”
“Feel flattered, baby, it’s a compliment.”
I was victim-blamed and slut-shamed
and told I was deserving
of what happened to me.
And quite frankly,
that was more difficult for me to endure
than my actual experiences
of image-based abuse.
But I couldn’t let
this criticism defeat me.
I knew what the perpetrators
had done was wrong,
and I knew what they were doing
to others was wrong.
And so I petitioned.
I sent out impassioned pleas for support.
But it didn’t work.
I think I got like 330 signatures.
And that was really disheartening.
But I then contacted
my state and federal MPs.
And I was referred to the New South Wales
Attorney General’s department,
who were already in the process
of drafting new laws
to criminalize the nonconsensual
distribution of intimate images.
Image-based sexual abuse.
Some of you might know it as revenge porn.
And soon I became a spokesperson,
a public face for the new laws.
But I must point out,
I do not in any way, shape or form
want to take credit
for this change in the law.
This is on the backs
of cybersafety experts,
of researchers, of the Attorney
General’s department,
of so many people
who have fought for years.
New South Wales was the first
state in all the world
to specifically include a provision
on altering images.
Something that happened to me,
something you certainly
don’t hear about very often.
And now ACT has also criminalized this,
also with a provision on altered images.
And next year, WA
is introducing legislation
and hopefully, they introduce
a provision on altered images
and I urge every state and every country
in this world to follow suit,
because right now,
there’s no justice for people like me.
Despite it all,
despite the hate
and despite the criticism,
despite the fact that I’m never
going to get justice,
because my experiences happened
before this movement of law reform,
speaking out was
the best thing I’ve ever done,
because I know for a fact
that it has helped people.
And I just want to live in a world
where, regardless
of what I wear or what I post,
that I’m still worthy of being treated
with dignity and respect.
Respect.
Now, that’s an idea worth sharing.
(Applause)
Thank you.
(Applause)