Blu From Limitation to Liberation
what if i told you
that right in the very seed
of a limitation a challenge
a shadow a weak spot
hold the seed of your greatest gift
every single person in this room has a
shadow a challenge
a limitation a weak spot a part of
ourselves that we don’t really always
present to the world
and not just every single person in this
room
but every single person on this planet
everybody’s going through something that
we know nothing about so compassion
is key
let me start with sharing my journey of
when my greatest limitation presented
itself
five years ago here’s me happy-go-lucky
hanging out with my dog cruising on my
bike through the venice canals
i started noticing that my hearing was
decreasing rapidly
and i spent a family meal with my with
my parents and my brother
and we were talking about it and i was
saying i i can’t pick up on words
like i used to my brother actually
started saying that he’d notice the same
symptoms
so we went for a hereditary for a
hearing checkup
and i’ll never forget that day for the
rest of my life
i walked out of that doctor’s office and
he said that
our results were extremely concerning
and after extensive amount of testing
our diagnosis was that
we have a hereditary hearing disorder
which is most likely a mutated gene
between our parents
it’s progressive meaning that it’s
getting worse
and it’s incurable so essentially
we were diagnosed with a hereditary
hearing disorder that meant that we were
going deaf and there was nothing that we
could do about it
i’m 25 years old what was guaranteed
what felt like was guaranteed what my
life was
all lined up for me everything then
start being in question
the thing that actually was the the joy
of my human experience of socializing
and connecting with other people
music events community started to be
to be the very seed
of what felt like a very new phenomenon
called social anxiety
as my hearing progressively got worse it
felt like i was standing in a puppet
show
and all i was hearing was mm-hmm
i got really good at smiling and nodding
and have no idea what was going on in
the room
i started feeling really isolated and i
could be in a room full of people and i
never felt
more alone and yes people could
empathize with my experience but no one
truly understood it did also lead me
into some very interesting situations i
remember being in a room with my friend
and she
she turned to me and she said gosh the
insects in the room are driving
me nuts i thought she told me that the
incest in the room was driving her nuts
you can imagine we went on completely
different pages for the rest of the
night things were a little awkward
because of this new social anxiety that
was feeling at the core of my being
i stopped going out there was no joy for
me there anymore
i stayed alone and home on and i didn’t
have to face off with my hearing loss
and something that i loved doing when i
was a kid but i haven’t done it for so
long
was drawing so i started drawing
i had a little piece of paper and i did
pencil sketches and eventually i went to
canvas
and eventually i started drawing a world
of beauty
everything became my canvas because when
i was painting or creating i didn’t have
to face off with the reality that i was
going deaf
my canvases got bigger and bigger
and then this is when angel number one
came into my life
his name was amir magal and he had
created
a body art marker pen all about the tool
of human connection
now you can imagine this definitely
grabbed my attention
it was all about human connection and
art human connection which i felt like i
completely lost
an art which is something that had just
become my world
and so essentially it’s a marker pen
that you draw on yourself
and so or drawing others so i started
painting on myself and i became my own
canvas
and when friends would come visit me as
i hermited in my apartment
i started drawing on them too
eventually over time of drawing on other
people
i realized that actually not all is lost
93 percent of human communication
is non-verbal so it’s like looking at an
iceberg
we’ve got 77 above the water that our
five senses pick up on
there’s 93 of the iceberg that sits
below
the surface level of the water that most
of us are not really even tapping into
i realize that actually words lie
all the time energy
never does remember that feeling
when you picked up on something when you
first met them and something was off but
you didn’t listen to your intuition and
then later you found out that you should
have listened to it
that’s that 93 i’m talking about
i realized that actually through
connecting with tribal markets i didn’t
even need to use a single word
and my connection was restored so this
is me hanging out again with my pup
i never left home without my handy pouch
of tribal markers and in a room full of
people when my social anxiety what is i
was at it peak i’d pull out my markers
and i’d create art on someone
and the human connection was way deeper
than the human connection i was even
experiencing before my hearing loss
leaving myself with the question was i
really even connecting before
so albert einstein once said energy can
never be created nor destroyed only
changed in form so if my energy was no
longer being sent towards my hearing
it’s got to go somewhere else and i
started realizing that it was actually
being funneled into my extra sensory
perception of feeling
and maya angelou once said i have
learned that people will forget what you
said
people will forget what you did but
people will never forget how you made
them feel
and through being able to draw and
create art on others and restoring my
human connection
i left something with them a piece of
artwork
realizing that actually giving and
receiving is the same energy
and even though i was long gone out of
the room
my energy of my gift still lingered
so this sort of excited me a little bit
the very thing that started to scare me
the most
actually when i leaned into it there was
gold on the other side
and because of my hearing loss i didn’t
know what was going to happen tomorrow i
don’t know what was going to happen in
10 years time
so my fear being in the driving seat of
all the things that i wanted to do but i
was far too afraid to do it didn’t seem
to make any more sense
so i went into the core of the things
that scared me the most and i made a
list in my journal
one of the things shaving my head
so i did it
and for most people i look completely
crazy but for me it seemed to make sense
realizing actually on the other side of
the thing that scared me the most
it’s the very thing that set me free
and so people said to me oh you’ve
actually lost your mind at this point
and i’m thinking i haven’t lost my mind
i know exactly where it is i just placed
it over there for a second start living
with my heart
because i have not got anything
guaranteed but this moment
for the rest of my life all i have is
right now
another thing that would scare me was to
travel solo
so i packed my bags and i went to nepal
went backpacking through the himalayas
and i walked through the streets of
kathmandu barefoot
i bought paint supplies
and went to the orphanages and connected
with the children
i painted murals i brought beauty to
places where there was just gray walls
and realizing actually that when i was
in service
i was no longer suffering and i didn’t
speak the same language as any of these
people
but service and love is a universal
language
i then found myself in the heart of the
amazon jungle studying with a 2000 year
old lineage called the shipibo tribe
learning all about the intelligence of
the plant worlds the master
plant teaches and then this is when
angel number two came into my life
a book called the gene keys created by a
man named richard rudd who is an
incredible human being
now according to the gene keys this is a
technology that helps us to access the
dormant potential within our dna
so there are 7.8 billion different
people on this planet there are 7.8
billion different realities happening
simultaneously
our reality is a byproduct of the lens
in which we see life through
our lens is created by all of the
stories that have happened up into this
point
and how we have responded to them
so there’s a bunch of people in this
room right now and all of you having a
completely different experience with the
same talk
some of you could be thinking wow she’s
a hippie off the deep end she’s not even
wearing any shoes
and some of you can be genuinely
inspired by what i’ve got to share today
your perception creates your reality
and so according to the gene keys
there’s three different frequencies that
we can operate as human beings
we have the shadow life is happening to
me
i am a victim of my external
circumstances
i blame outside of myself as to why
things the way that they are
there’s nothing i can do about it
because when i blame something external
i give all my power away
i am living someone else’s story and i
am not fulfilled
there’s the gift life is happening for
me
i may not understand it in this moment
but a hundred percent of the time
it’s worked out
and the reason why this is happening for
me is to prepare me for something
even greater than what is present right
now
and then there’s the city the clearest
lenses these are the sages
the gurus the people that have left
legacies on this planet long after they
have passed
this is where synchronicity becomes a
default
life is happening through me i am a
conduit of the divine will
so when i studied into the gene keys the
gene keys you can create your own
individual hologenetic profile
and it’s created from two technologies
the iching and astrology
and when i was diving deep into this
text wanting to understand what is my
superpower on the other side of my
challenge
i saw that i have deafness in my chart
i’ll never forget that moment sitting in
my little cabin in the forest
open up my book and realize that there
was a superpower hidden
in this challenge i have been given a
truth filter
the ability to feel energy and read far
beyond the words
neil strauss once said how you respond
to the inevitable pain of existence
determines the happiness and the
fulfillment of your life
and the dalai lama once said pain is
inevitable
suffering is optional and i like to add
a little bit on to that
pain is inevitable suffering is optional
suffering is a byproduct of resisting
what is
and my dear sister brianna says the most
sacred thing
is what is because remember a hundred
percent of the time
it’s worked out up until this point
and then this is when i came across the
story of beethoven
now i’m sure all of you are familiar
with beethoven’s music of course
yet will you we are you familiar that
beethoven was a hundred percent deaf
he created some of the most incredible
music that didn’t just touch people’s
hearts it made people
feel something on the core of their
being this man translated vibration into
music
that left a legacy long after his past
his story reinforced what i was
discovering and realizing
that our lenses create our reality
we think 60 000 thoughts a day
and for the most part they’re
disempowering thoughts
our thoughts are like a frame around our
artwork
all of you are an exquisite piece of
artwork
and now you take that piece of artwork
and you put it in the garage
behind the sofa with a blanket covered
over it covered in dust
now it’s lost all of its value now you
take that same piece of artwork and you
put it in the getty museum
with a gold frame around it a red tape
in front of it and you can’t sell them
to five feet in front of it
now it’s worth 10 million dollars same
piece of artwork
different frame what story
are you telling yourself around your
limitation
your weakness that achilles heel
because the story is the perception that
creates your reality
we can either be a victim of
circumstance
or we can be a creator of circumstance
but if it wasn’t for my deafness i
wouldn’t have discovered all of these
gifts
i’m curious what is your deafness what
is your challenge what is your achilles
heel what is your limitation
because it might just well be the
greatest gift and your service to the
world
and if we want to heal the planet the
division that’s happening
where everyone’s pointing the blame and
hoping that something
outside of us is going to save us we’re
fooling ourselves
the only way we’re going to see a shift
on this planet is if we take ownership
of our internal reality
self-awareness is one of the greatest
gifts you could give yourself
because i’m standing here today telling
you this story from the core of my wound
i’m 70 deaf right now and you can
imagine with the masks things get really
tough
i don’t know what’s going to happen
tomorrow i don’t know what’s going to
happen in 10 years from now
but what i can carry with me is the
shift of perception that life is
happening for me and i’m always looking
for the gift in the challenge
and so i want to share with you today a
gift that i found
i was so afraid to sing in public before
my hearing diagnosis the thought of
singing and expressing myself shut me
down my body would physically
shake my face would go red my palms
would go sweaty they’re kind of sweaty
right now as well
and i let fear limit my self-expression
but because nothing was guaranteed and i
didn’t even know if i was going to be
able to hear my own voice
ever again i started thinking
and just like beethoven i don’t hear the
sound i feel it
and so i want to invite you don’t hear
this
feel it because i believe that the voice
is the vibration of our soul
and so i invite you for your soul
to be mine
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thee
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may we liberate ourselves so that we can
liberate the world
and so it is thank you
[Applause]
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