If Only A Bullying Survivor Can Tell
[Music]
what is pain
what is blaming yourself
what is long-lasting feeling like death
in combat
with glorious my name is etia
i read this letter for supporting myself
to stand up as bullying survivor
hey there i would like to say thank you
for giving me this kind of undefined
pain
from the day you yield to the word i am
that stupid girl i’m not so
good kid to be at school
since i’m the doctor of an alcoholic
and to the day when you strongly remind
me
i’m not in the same level with a group
of
happy kids as it should be
hi there i would like to say thank you
for making me still remember when i
thought
that good family is the rich one
and we the poor could only be dreamed
to be treated as nice as the word
served hey you i would like
to say thank you forgive me
this undescribable feeling of
questioning
why me why superior
and inferior axis
why this pain stays forever
wise men say time heals
but for me fully recovered is just like
a fairy tale
but hey isn’t it magical stories
from vinnie two to the famous five
that give me a strength
and make me believe that i’m okay
even i’m not as time goes by
and as long as the sun rising
and the moon calling at night i believe
that
life is always offered me a strength
a strength not to fight back
but to stay right in the past
later i know the fact is let me
to the day i know i deserve
and you know one of the day is today
when i successfully manage myself
to believe that i can
couch the hope for some people
being good is just something like that
but for me it happened one day
it repeats every day and end up
unknown but if you see deeper
for those who suffer this pain
being bullied it’s just like you sink in
the dark
so dark and unbreathable
seconds when i got bullied
i thought all the eyes seeing me
as the ugly girl and you know
ugly girl doesn’t fight back
i just stay there do nothing
freezing when life turns up
and i grew up i have already set
the situation of life and i thought
there is no space left for people
to bully me but then
does it happen no i get bullied again
well this is actually bullying in
different way
but for me the pain is remain the same
and sometimes it always make me
immediately powerless what i learned
from this brilliant journey
is just to be conscious not only by
accepting the situation but
let our inner self to lift
the way check your strength
realize what your weaknesses
respond to them and just
moving on we all know
that moving on is not a magic
for me i could just
try to do something that
i think i can achieve
something that i prep well it is
not always something formal
that we could also do something
in daily life you know it’s like
sharing your thoughts with others and
try to be a good listener for me
that is the important step to try
to accept myself it is also good
to give a time a time
well maybe this is just a bit confusing
but what i want to say is
sometime in life we just need to let
something
happen passionately and reach
its best time and not forget
to always have your mantra
for me my life mantra is just too
just always be nice and
give yourself your life a little try
the other important is i feel so
gratitude to have a support from my
husband
maybe for you you could also have
support
from those you considered as family
sharing the story of our bully journey
with them could give us a different
perspective
and it could also
give us a support like never before
a power like never before
you know that when i’ve got a support
from my family
it feels like something keep me
floating what i want to say to
all my fellow who get bullied
please just let your painful wounds
see the air not all the things
could be healed in a short time i
believe
but all the time is just to make
our lives and life it as we deserve
good luck