Listening to your internal voice
why do you watch ted talks
ted talks the great people share their
great challenges
research and the great ideas they found
from their great experience
there are many reason people watch ted
talks
wines for studying english screw
assignment
or why just because it’s cool hobby
but one of the most popular reason
people watch ted talks
seem to be to look for hints or answers
to make our lives better
ted talk impress us greatly
and make us think i want to be like them
i’ll change my mind completely from
tomorrow
we then go to bed and totally forget
about it
but we still dribble to
watch another talk weekend after weekend
and continue the cycle of forgetting
today i would like to tell you
how to break this cycle in your life
it is hint not for regretting your life
later
listen to and obey
your internal voice
before i tell you my topic in detail
i’d like to show what will happen
if you’d ignore your internal voice
through sharing woman’s experience
he is such a famous guy
that you might have seen once
in your life
yes that guy is me
i used to be nursing student of national
defense medical college
up until five years ago
when i was in elementary school
i loved robots and biology
especially loved fish
so my dream then was to research about
deep sea
or to make a fish robot but
after my grandmother got alzheimer’s
disease
i started to think taking care of
patients
and fighting against the disease that’s
one of the greatest thing
so i said goodbye to my first robot in
my mind
then decided to be a doctor
and i studied to pass the entrance exam
for medical school
believing i can pass if i want it
but my score was too bad
to pass exam
so i tried twice but my score
got worse
so i lost my energy and
i decided to go to nursing school to
pursue another medical professional
career
nursing is wonderful and important
profession
however i knew i
wanted to be a physician
after i entered the nursing school every
day
i got up went to classes from a four
person dorm room
then to rugby craft which was tough for
me
then going back to four person room and
sleeping
this was my daily cycle on weekdays
gradually i got used to this life
and the year passed
the day didn’t change at all
studying nursing going to rugby club
which was still tough then going back to
same room
and sleeping same cycle
sometimes when i talk
with my friends who went to medical
school
i was reminded that i had wanted to be a
doctor
and regret it i had given up
my dream
but i try not to think about it too much
because i already gave up and i had to
study nursing
it all changed just before the second
year summer holiday
i was pro assigned by dolmaster
she said when i conducted
a looting loom checkup the
empty bottle of vodka was
found from your room
drinking in the dome is prohibited as
you know i have a question for you
is it yours
yes it was mine and actually i drank it
but i said yes this bottle was mine but
i just collected empty
bottles not for drinking
but only one bottle
seems to be not to be enough to call the
collection so she refused my excuse
and grounded me four months
yes i did something wrong
so i clearly deserved it
but it was tough time
i couldn’t go outside
the punishment lasted even after the
summer vacation began
so after my roommates happily went
back to the home i spent
lying on the bed lonely
in a four person dorm room
i didn’t have anything to do there was
no cycle anymore
however for the first time
i had time to take a look at the thing
in my life beyond the cycle
my future and my goal
i realized i still wanted to be a doctor
while i thought i had already given up
what i was doing was just
persuaded myself not to think about it
by making excuses to myself
such as i failed the entrance exam
already or it’s too late
to read challenge or
i had to study nursing and so on
during childhood we dream
we dream to be many things like becoming
to
a football player a hero
or even a dinosaur
how about now we have so many things to
do
and no time to think about our dream
or we might think dream
is childish or unreal
however if
our dreams is absolute nonsense
if that dream comes from our mind
we can’t ignore it completely as long
as we live dream emerges
from bottom of our mind as our internal
voices
so every time our dream emerges
we’ll have to suppress our dream again
and again by trying not to think about
it
or by making excuses to ourselves
but if we keep doing so
at much long later time
we would regret we should have listened
to a voice within
and we would blame ourselves
for a long time
in my case thanks for the bottle
and the door master i had time
to think about my future seriously
it gave me an opportunity to make up my
mind
to finally obey my internal voice
so i quitted the nursing school
and studied to study again
for medical school
i can’t express enough appreciation
to my parents and to my friends
for understanding my records challenge
after one gap year i passed the entrance
exam
for this medical university and finally
i studied to study medicine
something i always wanted to do since my
middle school days
a friend of mine said to me i realize
what i really want to be but i can’t
throw away what i have now
how are you able to make a big decision
how can i be crazy like you
he misunderstood me because i’m not
crazy as he said
to be honest soon after quitted
the nursing school i regretted
my decision of throwing away i had them
however if
we are with our internal voice
we can be stronger we can love ourselves
from the bottom of our heart
and it gives the energy to
overcome difficulties and regrets we may
have
only our own voice can drive us
crazy
the friend asking me that question
also created the hospital after he
graduated
and now he works at a pharmaceutical
company
like he wanted
studying in medical school is same as
busy
as i was in nursing school but my inner
voice
kept me going speaking english
is one of the challenges
i faced at our school
after i entered this university all
classes
were held in english same as many
japanese students
initially i was not able to speak in
english
at all however
studying with returning and
international students
i came to want to improve my english as
much as possible
so i practiced
that didn’t always go well
but now i am giving the tech
x talk in front of you
in english also
i still have fish so i obtained the
diving license
after i entered medical school
i would like to ask you again
why do you watch ted talks
to make our lives better
you don’t have to change yourselves
completely
all of a sudden of course we can’t
we have cycles daily
weekly and annually
there are so many things to do and we
tend to focus on the thing
just in front of us
but if we really
want to improve our lives
we need to stop the cycle
to listen to your internal voice
and think about this things beyond the
cycle
your future
i hope all of you listen your internal
voice
and makes your life even better
thank you for listening